dear bloggy friends.
i guess i lied when i said i was going to be here more often.
but then again when the walls came tumbling down i had to prioritize things around here a bit differently than i expected. literally. the walls in this 101+ years old house were falling down in places. which meant some demolition. and plasterers. and re-plastering. and texturing. and painting. and moving the furniture, beds, etc. every single morning so they could work and at night again so we could sleep.
see….not very exciting to blog about huh?
i really don’t have a lot to “show” for what i’ve been up to.
i’ve been working on being a better mama and wife.
more present and prayerfully aware of what everyone’s needs are. and they do change so often. we are a fickle lot.
trying to pray that rosary every. single. day. wrapping all my loved ones in the mantle of our lady.
is there really any safer place in this uncertain upside down world?
working on my marriage. yes, it needs work. sitting down with my husband and looking into his eyes when he comes home from a long day at work. listening to his concerns and cares. feeding him a good, solid meal. taking time to connect and talk and lay my head in the crook of his neck while we talk like lovers do…this is important stuff.
taking the time to do my hair and make up so that when said husband gets home, there is something besides “chaos” for him to look “at”.
and that goes for the house too. clearing the clutter. (he does hate clutter). and at this point so do i (excepting school papers, messes, those are sort of inevitable).
simplifying the things i can.
and simply leaving the rest to God.
and then there is the whole “trying to lose weight and get healthy” thing i’ve been tied up with. trying to eat gluten free most of the time. yet not “starve” my husband (or the boys for that matter) whose thoughts sort of go like this on a cold night (or rather any night): “honey, you really need to buy some hot cocoa with marshmallows and cinnamon graham crackers….” while i am still reminiscing about the snickers he snuck into bed the night before. pleading with me to take just. one. bite.
without going into too much detail i have found that a lot, if not ALL of my depression, anxiety, irregular periods, infertility, weight gain, etc. etc. (health problems) is due to *gasp* my diet. (the fact that i LOVE food. and LOVE to cook does not help much either) so evaluating my relationship with food and eating has been an interesting, albeit time-consuming, tiring, difficult and expensive journey.
buuuuuuuut…..my LIFE depends upon it. so. it HAS to be done. and besides (me) i worry about my kids too…so making sure they are eating healthy and getting their vitamins and veggies. drinking disgusting green shakes for breakfast instead of plates filled with jelly topped scones and bacon + eggs on the side….the look on their faces really is priceless each morning. “don’t put spinach in mine.” “i hate coconut milk.” “that new shake powder you bought is disgusting.” are some of the things which would be overheard if you had your ear pressed to the outside of my kitchen door on most days of the week excepting saturdays and sundays. (i’m not so strict then!)
i finally finished my mother’s birthday scarf. (started sometime last year).
my mother, the artist. i can’t believe it has almost been one year since her accident. my how the time does fly….
i’ve been dillydallying with sepia tones a lot lately. it’s funny how even with all of the technological advancements in digital photography/editing i find that the lack of color in certain pictures to be so peaceful.
color can be so noisy…..unless you are a fall tree in crowning glory, of course…
naptimes with a book resting on your chest….definitely a black and white moment. (this girl child is a book thief. we are immensely enjoying shirley jackson right now. short stories and spooky stories. spine chilling eerie written so craftily . but because we are “sharing” the book she often reads ahead of me and will text me little “hints”. it’s driving me nuts because she has more time to read than i do!)
so i promise not to cram too much more into this post.
it is late and i have a list a mile long for the morning.
it was good to check in.
let’s do this again soon.