i used to be a blog-ger. or a word-press-er if you want to be technical.
but i just saw (on someone else’s blog) that i last posted. *gasp* six. days. ago.
i wish i could say i’ve been on an impromptu vacation. or sewing lots of pretty things.
but unfortunately i’ve only been tying up a bunch of loose ends. the kinds of loose ends that only a mother can tie.
summer is teasing us right now. we have really warm afternoons. but the evenings are still cool. cool enough that if we sleep with the fans on we wake up with sore and scratchy throats.
we have 3 new kittens.
school is officially over. yet somehow my brain is already racing towards next year. how much is math curriculum going to cost me? is it worth leaving the charter school? will this be THE year? filing that affidavit is such a pain. etc. etc.
i am being summoned to read stories again.
that is a deja vu. didn’t i just write that only days ago?
a series of steady repetitions.
that is the beat of my life right now.
sort of orderly. as orderly as it gets for me. struggling to manage the unmanageable. trying my hardest to “attract the gaze of God”.
doesn’t that have a nice ring to it? i read that in the magnificat the other day.
well, that will always be a part of my story anyway. the trying part.
once upon a time there was a mama who tried. and at night she was so. so. tired. because she didn’t drink coffee anymore.
i’ll be back soon….